Especially when you're pregnant with the your first child.

The feeling is different. One moment you're anak dara, then you're a wife and later you're pregnant, become a mother.

Few days back (demm.. Lupa nak cuci siling, lainkali jgn menaip sambil baring, nanti nampak segala sawang dekat siling), pergi beli satay. Just me. The husband pening campur nak demam sikit-sikit and the kecik stays at home. My outing will be lots easier with no running kid. Poei beli sabun je eh. Kang ada yang tolong isi troli dengan segala macam kek/coklat/air yakult. Tapi tak bawak the kecik pung, I still beli sabun, kek and cekedis. Hahahaha!

Lepas tu rasa macam nak makan satay. The sayangness pun nak makan jugakk (dah balik rumah baru tau yg my sayang nak makan satay, nasib baik beli dah). Masa tunggu satay (almost one bloody hour! Nasib baik sedap), I order, lepas tu lepak dalam kereta. There was one pregnant lady standing at the shop, waiting for her order. Nampak gaya macam 5-6 months of pregnancy. Dan nampak gaya jugak bukan macam first pregnancy. Her husband parked his car in front of my car, can see the car seat. More than 30 minutes this pregnant lady berdiri sebelah kipas satay tu.

Masa tu I okay lagi. Lama lepas tu bila order akak tu dah siap, she was carrying almost 10 plastic bag with satay and ketupat and kuah semua lah. Her husband tunggu je dalam kereta.

Gua sudah hangin. Eh. Bukan hangin. Tapi macam.. Mengeluh? Haa.. Sighh.. Kenapalah her husband let her wifey carry all the stuff? Kenapa? Kenaaaapppaaaaaaa? Sonang-sonang eh lepak dalam kereta. Lepas tu terus terbayang..

Haihh.. How I'll look like if am pregnant again? Adakah sama macam first pregnancy? Will my husband treats me like before? Will my husband sticks with me all the time? The sayangness off to meeting, pungg I ikut jugak? Pergi appointment pung I ikut jugak? How about the monthly check up and such?

Penat fikir tapi pregnant nya tak jugak. Hahaha. Eh. Dah lama pulak tak ada baby. 4 years is nothing. In a blink je tengok budak bertuah tu dah melalak, merengek, lepas tu kaki bodek No 1.

: Mommy, aca book dulu.

(2 mins mengadap books lepas tu layan games, bertuahhhhhh!)

: Mommyyyy, love me! (Sambil datang hug tiba-tiba)

Lepas tu,

: Mommyyy, nak ekuattt! Nak ekuatttt! Eeeekuuuuuaaaaaattttt!

Anyway,
To sayang,

I want the next pregnancy to be just like the first one. Tagging along, enjoy much and most important, you're there for me. Tak kira lah for angkat barang mahupun carry me or buying stuff/food and everything, just be there for me.

Kenapa ye bila anak kedua dan seterusnya, treatment adalah lain?

Anak first, bulan-bulan check up tak miss, lepas tu semua benda beli, even it's not a must, and lots more.

Sorry. Cerita tergantung. Budak bertuah baru bangun tidur. And cranky.

Bye!
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