I am one of the young wives and mothers.

Sungguh. Bila I kata muda, I memang muda. If you nak kata I umur 16 tahun pun, I dengan redha terima seadanya. Nak kata umur 29 tahun pun bolehh. Haha.

I've got this so often, how old are you actually? And I'll always stick to umur belasan tahun or my birthday will always be 21st. Tapi tukang massage tu boleh pulak dah teka my exact age. Nampak sangat kulit seiring dengan usia. Bukan kulit muka, kulit kaki. Kaki cramp, cara terbaik? Pergi massage.

Entah. I don't know why, tapi keeping your age as a secret, macam fun je. Especially when you're one young wife. Sungguh. If bagitau exact age, nanti orang kata, 'Ehhh! Muda lagi', and banyak lagi soalan-soalan lain timbul. Keeping your age as a secret, in a way, lebih kurang, more or less untuk kurangkan soalan-soalan yg harus dijawab di masa-masa hadapan. Kenapa tak nak jawab? Because it's the very same questions from everyone. Benda sama. Lama-lama, you pun malas nak jawab.

Sebab tu I prefer to keep the age as a secret. Or I cakap dgn org yg lebih tua or their kids lebih kurang sebaya with my son, I'll just using the 'I' and 'You'. Kadang-kadang ada yg I panggil orang tu kakak, which, obviously she's older than me. Tapi kakak gua, still, I panggil Cik Esah.

Ini bukan rahsia-rahsia umur sebab angka umur tu dah banyak sangat. Tapi sebab angka pada umur tu sikit sangat. Bila bagitau umur sebenarnya, sedikit sebanyak people will said,

: Hu.. Umur muda macam tu. Entah tau masak ke tak.

: Entah tau guna mesin basuh or tak.

See.. Betapa banyak entah lagi akan terkeluar.

It's like the people's trust to your ability macam dah berkurangan, just because you're young wife and mother.

Deyy!
Yang bercakap tu pun baru kawen, tahun ni I masuk 5 tahun kawen (yeah, still new), tapi, lagi lama than orang yang bising-bising tu. Or my son lagi tua than their kids. Obviously I dah bape lama dealing with kids attitude kan?

Mungkin sebab utama why am keeping my age as a secret, sebab I don't want people to look down at me. And also, to stop those the same questions. I tak kisah orang kata, 'Eh! Muda nya', I terus Amin! je, so, nanti awet muda. Hahaha! Tapi sebab being a young wife never been easy.

First, you'll become wife. Then if ada rezeki, kid(s). A wife and mother at a very young age, is something.. Hmm.. Lemme say.. Penat tapi menarik. And people will keep asking how you're handling your life.

You'll have to separate between a wife duty, with classes, with shopping, hanging out with friends, enjoying your youth, and tambah with one kid, pregnancy, cooking, and semualah. It's like a mixed bowl. Macam bubur asyura pun ada. Semua bercampur gaul dalam tu. It's never easy. Except, hari-hari you pergi dating with someone yang halal untuk dipegang dan dipeluk. That's what we called, a husband.

Itu belum lagi bila your husband outstation and you kena terkejar-kejar pergi kelas yang jauh nun di sana. Everything just because to statisfied your parents, your husband, your family and diri sendiri.

Bila kahwin muda, basically, we're still in youth. Memberontak memang banyak. Especially bila sekeliling you ramai manusia emosi terlebih. And bila jadi mother, it's getting worst. You just want to give the best to your kid. Benda lain you tak pandang dah. Nak bagi anak yang terbaik. Obviously la kan?

Jiwa masih muda and if ada yang tak berkenan sikit, mesti orang-orang tertentu kena sembur. Still, a young wife and mothers knows what they did. Just hoping that bila you kahwin muda, your life partner tu dah stable. Or older than you. That's helps a lot.

I memang kureng sikit bagi jawapan bila people asking me, how old am I, and it's kinda irritating bila ada someone yg knows your age, and bagitau semua orang how old are you exactly. Sebab, sebelum tu okay je orang tu borak-borak dengan kita, tup-tup, bila tau berapa umur kita, their mindsets dah bertukar, 'Ohh! Budak ni muda. Mana dia tau apa-apa'. Ceitt. At least we've got internet nowadays. Nak belajar apa, semua ada online. Nak belajar penjuru 4 katil pun ada. Eh. Terbabas. Sorry. Hahha!

Atau bila berkumpul ramai-ramai, and ada sessi meneka umur. And people guessing your age wayy tua than your exact age. Lepas tu, if you iyekan their guessing, they'll believe you pulak tu! Ggggrrrr! Okay. Let's say your age is 20, and people guessing you're 25. Then you anggukkan je la sebab malas nak ada sessi soal jawab-how-you're-handling-husband-and-school-and-kid-at-young-age, and bila you angguk, they actually believe your age adalah 25! Even you're 20 actually! Tiba-tiba terus tersedar, OMG! Did marriage and kid took my youth awayyyyy? Am really looking that old??? Hahahaha. Tapi if terjadi kat I pun, I layankan aje. Nothing harm pun.

Umur je pun haa..
Tapi some people really takes them like something serious. Bukannya I nak apply kerja dengan you pun.

And if you're asking me,
Am going to celebrate my 21st birthday (again) this year.

Nombor-nombor selepas 21 sounds unrealistic and nombor-nombor sebelum 21, sounds budak sangat.

So, 21st yo!

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