Biasa la kan.. Manusia.. Selalu bertanya-tanya..

Dah ada couple? Bila nak tunang? Kawen dh? Bila nak ada anak? Bila nak tambah lagi satu? Lagi satu? Sepasang? Dua pasang? Bila nak berhenti tambah anak?

Adei.. Ingat kasut ke sepasang dua pasang..

I still remember during Im's wedding.. Time tu berhenti kat mana tah.. For dinner. Im sewa bus for sedara mara. Tapi my sayang and me tak naik that bus. Kitaorg follow dgn kereta. So do my mak abah. Dorg kereta lain. So bila dah berhenti makan..

I've met one of my aunts.. <-- officially we'll call the aunts as bonda. > Hari tu jupe your daughter-in-law. Nampak cam pucat je. Dia pregnant for 2nd one yea?

Then my bonda tu angguk and senyum.

> Haah. No 2.

Quickly one of my cousins said..

> Haa.. Org lain dah tambah lagi satu. Bila your turn?

Then I senyum je la.

Siap gelak-gelak.

Kenapa?

The reason kenapa my sayang and I didnt join them in the bus, sebab mmg tak tahan duk lama if travel. Bayangkan if naik bus, lagi la tak tahan. Tak kira la tu bus first class ke pe ke.. Sorry la. Perut neh sendat sgt dah. Am thinking about taking flight from KL-Kuantan <- my bro (Im) married wif org Kuantan, then from Kuantan-KB. My sayang drove the car. Tapi nanti kat KB my sayang will pick me up utk balik Kg Raja la kan. For the reception. Then Cik Esah macam mengada-ngada lak suh bawa kereta dia. Eh? Pehal lak? Bawa la sendiri. Cik Esah's reason.. Cik Pon and Cik Bop nak naik bus. So, kiranya my sayang and me bawa Cik Esah's car to the Kuantan then Kg Raja. Then nanti nak balik KL, amek flight je la. Am asking Im.. > Hurm.. Gitu.. Adik claim tiket flight r dgn Im.

> Claim je la.

Kenapa I tak tahan duk lelama dlm kereta?
And kenapa perut sendat?

I was 6 months pregnant at that time.

Tapi seriously no one notice.

Harap je anak dah ramai tapi bila I pregnant takde sape perasan. He..

Bayangkan during Im's reception.. I still can wear the Indonesia kebaya. Kurus tak? = D

So my pregnancy is macam sume org terkejut la.. Eh.. Pregnant ke? Sihat je nampak.

Apa? Pregnant wajib muntah-muntah ke? Wajib pakai maternity wear? Oh.. Nampak so tua okeh pakai baju ibu mengandung. Plus all the maternity wear.. Takdok my size. Siap the SA Modern Mom sindir I lagi ada la time gi masuk situ. Boleh pulak dia cakap..

> Oh.. You baru 4 weeks pregnant kan? Baru lagi nak cari baju gini.

Eh? Hello? I was 5 months okeh time jejak kaki situ. Terus then angkat kaki keluar. Hu..

Am not bunting pelamin ke pe. Almost a year baru dapat the kecik.

And all that I can say is.. Allah know better than us.

If you're asking me did we planned for the baby?

Takde. If ada rezeki.. Ada la. If tak lagi, takpe la.

Honestly people around me mmg ada yg lebih 10 thn kahwin tapi takde anak. Rezeki dari sudut harta benda berlambak-lambak tapi rezeki utk dapat zuriat sendiri.. Belum dapat.

I've read somewhere about Eja already married for 10 years and baru pregnant?

See.. How long she's been waiting for the baby. My ears neh dh macam immune wif people yg kaya harta benda tapi anak takde.

Kesian sebenarnya. How they're dying to get their own child. Tapi nak buat macam mana, Allah cakap belum boleh bagi. Ada alasan dan sebab disebalik tu sume.

Especially when they're your own neighbours or relatives. Betapa they want their own child, the kecik tu dah jadi macam anak dorg. That's why am ok sharing the kecik wif others. Selain daripada the kecik tu adorable. He.. Ada sedikit perasan di situ. He..

I still remember when the kecik was born.. One of my cousins.. Dah ada anak perempuan 3 org.. Tu pun nak dapat yg the first one, tunggu almost 12 years then once dh lekat.. Selang setahun dapat anak. Alhamdulillah. Rezeki. Then bila the kecik lahir, dia macam berkenan sgt wif the kecik. Even her own husband. Nak cakap nak amek kang, takut I sedih. So dia pass tru my mother cakap if ay busy wif the study, hantar rumah dia je la. Dia tlg tgkkan.

Memang dari dulu smpai sekarang, sume org kept saying those words..

> If you need to go somewhere, or busy, just send the baby here.

They said the kecik warm.. Bawa tuah.

Entah la. Sume org bertuah. Takde lebih takde kurang.

Even my own sis tu pun, Cik Esah la kan, sape lagi, suka je if the kecik tu jadi anak dia. So dia tak payah la serabut fikir bila org tanya bila nak dapat anak lelaki?

Anak itu anugerah.
Even we still can control bila nak dapat anak or tak nak, if Allah cakap jadi, jadi.

Makan la ubat apa pun, guna la apa pun, if dah ada rezeki, terima dgn hati terbuka. And penuh kasih sayang. And if belum ada, nothing much I can say. Sabar je la.
And if tak nak anak..

I dunno your reason.. Tapi if rezeki kita daripada segi harta dunia bertambah-tambah, kenapa tidak kita salurkan ke insan lain? Our own blood. Memang patut sedekah ke anak yatim and all tp if we still can get our own child tanpa sebarang halangan daripada segi kesihatan dan sebagainya, why not ada satu lagi tanda cinta, kasih sayang. Yang nanti, InsyaAllah bakal titipkan doa buat kita di akhirat kelak. Mengapa tidak?

I just love the anak topic. So many debat-debat.
I'm myself as the youngest one is unpredictable child. My mak was 40 something when I was born.

If Allah gv or He trying to gv hint via other things e.g. such comfort or harta or happiness, why we didnt think it's a sign from Him to share it wif our own blood? Our new ones.

= D